Hypocrisy

It's true -I'm a hypocrite.  The story of my hypocrisy is kinda long.  It starts back in September. 

Back in September, my life was great.  I liked A, and he liked me.  We'd been happy together since March.  We'd gone to prom together, and I'd had the time of my life.  I loved the way he'd asked me to prom -- it was very creative, and awesome! 

But, in August, I got called to Stake Youth Council.  One of the questions they ask is  "are you following the standards in For the Strength of Youth(FTSoY)."  I said that I was, but, because of A, I really wasn't -- FTSoY says not to have a steady boyfriend during high-school, and me and A were kinda together. 

So, the day before I was set apart, I ended things with A.  I explained that because of my new calling, I had to follow the standards.  He was very understanding, but I felt bad.  We have a class together, and it was really hard to not hold hands with him, etc.  There was actually one time when I lost my resolve and did hold his hand after class. 

At the same time, I had just switched into a new seminary class.  In it, there's this one really cute guy -- M.  Well, a couple of weeks ago, I found out that M likes me, and I like him.  So, we started holding hands, etc.  That would be fine, except I'm still on stake youth council.  So, now I feel like a hypocrite for ending things with A, and yet having a relationship with M, when circumstances are the same.  And, I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY don't want to end things with M.  So, now i'm stuck.  But, then again, that's My Crazy Life.  :)