Regrets and Impressions

Wow. This last little while has been crazy. I went to the bible bee..placed 19th, which while it isn't semi-finals, is still WAAAAY better than I've ever done. So obviously I was disappointed to not win, but I am happy with my place.  

But anyway..this post isn't about that.  It's about why I still keep talking to some people, even when I haven't seen some of them in 6 years.  There's really only a couple people that fit into that description, but I can't  help but think about them. Not sure why they're on my mind today…probably because I actually talked with both of them this week.  

One of them has made an appearance on this blog before - -good old Samir Patel.  We met at the spelling bee…really never hung out much at the bee, but we traded e-mails and have talked off and on ever since.  But…why? We never really hung out much at the Bee, and our lives have gone very different ways…he's like a child prodigy, and I'm….well, I make good grades, but there's nothing extraordinary about me.  Well…regrets and impressions. At the…2006 (?) bee I asked for his e-mail…and kinda yelled at him.  I seem to remember saying something about him being cocky, etc. I regret doing that, extremely. Secondly, he made an impression on me.  He placed third in third grade. He seemed self-assured and confident.  Idk how to explain it any other way than that. He caught my attention, and so for whatever reason I think we'll go on talking off and on. 

Secondly..Mitch Ewing. Not the M I mentioned in some other posts..that was a guy named Mckay Chamberlain. No..Mitch…we met about 2 years ago in my Physics class. He was the class smart-mouth. However, he didn't just make snarky comments…he made intelligent, relevant snarky comments.  He grabbed my attention, and I ended up liking him.  I eventually got up the nerve to tell him how I felt (…by leaving a note in his locker - how lame is that?) However, timing was against us and he transferred schools. However, we kept in contact, and somehow that topic came up. He said that  the couple of times he had tried to snag me at lunch he wanted to..pull me away and kiss me. Well, of course that left an impression, and ever since I've been wondering about what might have been had he not transferred schools. Never actually got up the nerve to tell him that, and I've dated other people, but we still talked. 

So what is the point of this post? Honestly..not sure.  I guess if I had to come up with one parting message, I'd say -- be careful what you say/do, especially to me.  I have a very long memory, and you never know when something you say could stick in my mind.  Also…go listen to Speak Now, by Taylor Swift. You don't want to wait until someone's getting married (or even until they're dating someone else) to say something that you may always regret not saying.  Take chances. Live life to the fullest.  Thanks for reading My Crazy Life. :)