In Shock

Wow.  This weekend has been crazy!! Things happened that I never thought were possible..

Let's start with Saturday after the Spring Sing practice.  I went over to Julie's and hung out with her, Rona, Gina, etc.  We kinda had a girl's night - texting random guy's numbers, trying on the sexy shorts, etc.

Oh! Sexy shorts.  Julie broke her knee, and had to go to the doctor's.  She had to change into these ginormous shorts, and they let her keep them. So now they're called the 'sexy shorts' and we are the Sisterhood of the Traveling Sexy shorts. :D

Anyway -- we hung out til like 1am, and then Julie, Rona, and I decided to sleep in Rona's tent.  Julie ended up changing her mind and sleeping in her apartment; I stayed.  So this is the first thing I never saw coming - me sleeping over at Rona's, when she was the one who stole Alex away.  I guess it's a mark of how much my heart has healed, that I can be that good of friends with her.

Second: yesterday was fast and testimony meeting.  I more my testimony about how everything really does work out for good.  I referenced the whole Alex and Rona thing (no, there were no details -- i simply said there was something I'd struggled with a few weeks ago).  I then said that because of everything I had learned, I was actually glad that it had happened -- I'd been forced to go outside my comfort zone, rely on the Lord, and had come to see how many wonderful people there are in my ward.

Third: this is the most shocking to me.  A while ago, after Zach and I started talking again, I started thinking that I still liked him.  Now, at the time I also still liked Alex, and so I tried squashing those feelings.  Didn't work so well.  Then Alex moved on.  As Zach comforted me, putting his arm around me, I couldn't help but realize how much it felt like old times.  Us sitting on our playground, just holding each other.  I was in pain because of Alex, but also because Zach had made it verrrrrryy clear that there was no chance of us getting back together.

Yeah... Turns out that over the past few weeks, he's come to realize that he actually does still like me.  And I definitely still like him.  I toyed with the idea of dating this other guy once I turn 18, but I really do think that he would just be a rebound from Alex.  I only considered it because he was there, paying attention to me when I was in a lot of pain.  I think I only thought I might like him because I was pretty sure he liked me - there were no real feelings there.

So ya -- Zach and I may be getting back together after my birthday -- 3 weeks! I still can't believe it - I thought the song "We are Never ever getting back together" kinda defined our relationship.  It just goes to show -- never give up hope.  Also -- just when you think you've figured things out, people will go and surprise you.

So ya - -Zach and I are going to see how the next three weeks go, and see where we are on March 25...so stay tuned. That's My Crazy life.