Reflections

Well, I should probably be doing school work right now, but I feel like updating my blogs instead.  Maybe I can keep them up as regular journal-type things.  I used to have this dream of writing in my journal everyday.  Then life got in the way, and I realized I probably would never have time for that.  Now though, hopefully I can at least update once a week.

So..reflections.  Idk.  I'm just kinda in a quiet, reflective mood right now.  This morning at work I was watching an episode of Wind at My Back.  In this show, there's a domineering lady named Mrs. May Bailey.  She tries to control everyones life, and doesn't really consider any view but her own.

Well, Honey is always telling Mrs. Bailey's daughter, Grace, to stand up to her.  It kinda reminded me of what friends in high-school used to tell me.  They used to say that I couldn't let my life be dictated by what my parents thought.  I believed them.

As I was watching this episode, I saw myself in Grace Bailey.  I saw my mother in May Bailey.  And...idk. I'm thinking standing up to my  parents in high-school was a bad idea (actually...considering I lied, I didn't actually stand up, but I'm thinking that in high-school I should have just gone with the flow - -I have the rest of my life to make decisions.  Now though, I think that pursuing what I want in the matter of Zach was the right thing to do. I am in college now.  I'm 18.  I have the right to make my own decisions.

So yes...I was reflecting on, i guess, how I finally discovered the courage to stand up to my parents.  It was lack of this courage that caused me to lie.  Now though, while I know that they disapprove of my choice to date Zach, I feel proud of myself for not lying about my final decision - instead, I chose to proclaim it to the world that I, Tia Thomas, am in a relationship with Zachary Scott.

I feel like I've changed a lot over the past few months.  Being at college has been good for me. Anyway. I'm kinda rambling. Maybe this is what it's like to right something in stream-of-consciousness.  Anyway. Ya...that's my Crazy Life!