Addendum to my last post.

So I added something to the last post :  that the last few months have been hell, and the only thing getting me through was the hope that Zach and I would eventually be back together.

Also -- after thinking today, I realized -- the reason (or at least a big one) that even though i knew Lance and I wouldn't work out, I ended up writing a letter that I will always regret, is because we just kept hanging out.  I mean...he was fun to hang out with, and so even though I knew it wasn't in my best interest, etc, we kept hanging out, and the rest is history.